Looking back on our love, it is; strange to me. In some senses, it’s new. Everyday and every second is a new experience, and new line of a story added each time. It’s weird but I think of our future together, and I want you to always be in it. I may be young and naive but I want you by my side, each step of the way, because you built me to become a better person. From the day we met I have forever been changed, shook to the bone, you have left a deep imprint that will most likely never leave.
Sometimes I wonder about the way you act, sometime I take a step back and smile because I look at you and say this is what I fell in love with. That cheesy smile, the silent laugh, that cruel sense of humor, those hands, the deep brown eyes. I fell in love with every part of you. Sometimes it is hard to see that, and I know. Sometimes I may not be rational, I may be mean and frustrated. I am not sorry for that though, because that what’s makes me human. It is what makes me, well me. I may not be perfect, but bare with me because I will make so many mistakes, but with you by my side, not only am I able to grow from them, but I am stronger because I had your support, your love and your care.
Sometimes, I wonder about the way you act. How you seem not care, or how you can be mean with your words, and I know that sometimes it can be a playful joke, but sometimes it hurts. My body aches when we are in a disagreement or when we aren’t normally ourselves. It hurts because I need you and I hate that. I hate that I need to depend on someone else, because I am scared to let me down. You mean too much for me to lose you.
All these emotions ride within me, like a wave, but all I know is that you have changed me and filled me in ways I’ve never known. From your surprise hugs,your forehead kisses, to your lips, to your smirks, you have shaken me to my core. The shock goes from my head to my cold little toes, and every time I look at you, I remember all the reason why I fell in love you.
And I am so thankful for that.
Forever and always.